ShaCruzin Through the Goodlife

penguinnonsense asked: I have a size 20 dress i bought for prom that is knee length and i think it is really beautiful. The joke between my aunt and i was that i was going to get married in it. I will sell it to you for $20 plus shipping. Message me if you want pictures. :)

Thank for the offer.  I got TONS of tips and I ended up getting a super cute dress.  However, all this new courage has given me the hunger for more fashion!!! Please send me pics!!! 

quelola asked: Igigi has some really cute casual wedding dressesthat are really inexpensive. Congrats and good luck!

I totally got a awesome dress from Igigi and I am going back for more!!!  I really want to say thank you for being there!  I can honestly say that all you beautiful ladies from Fuckyeahchubby fashion have given me the courage and confidence to go and grab at life!  Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

What a fantastic place the internet can be if you are in the mindset for a fact finding mission.  And Boy, is that what I have been on the last couple of days…a mission.  I mission to finally find clothes that make me feel, hip, free, and even sexy.  First random goals;

1:  Find a dress and wear it with pride. 

2: Find a pair of boots I can wear with said dress.

History lesson here:  I haven’t worn a dress in YEARS.  I mean YEARS!!  Its not as though I am against the girly look, its just that I never felt that my chubby self should be in something sooooo well, girly cute.  But with the help of my friend Fi and the awesome chicks from fuckyeahchubbyfashion.com and ilikeprettyclothes.com I have come to embraced my shape a bit more.  And I figured that I should not hide away from the world when I have so much to offer it.  Besides, hiding has only accomplished a few things. I am one hell of a WoW guild leader, but I have also put on extra weight and my wardrobe reflects a person who has simply given up. 

A few years back, with the help a crazy diet and well…cancer, I lost over an 100lbs.  The life that I was thrown into after going from a size 18 to a size 10 was very over-whelming considering that I have always been the “fat friend”, the comfort status-quo so to speak.  Obviously, I didn’t keep the the weight off.  Being almost bed ridden for a few months at my parents house, low self esteem and fear of the unknown triggered my need to eat to comfort.  Of course, my mother serving me sloppy joes and rocky road icecream didn’t help much either, but she met well.

Fast forward to now and the diagnosis of PCOS which then lead to diabetes, I have new reasons to get healthier and hopefully shed some unneeded weight.  Try to follow my logic here, me losing weight here isn’t going to make me happy, because well I was thinner and well…wasn’t happy.  So, if I learn to love myself, I mean really love who I am inside and out, then happiness is bound to be right behind.  I mean, love is happiness, isn’t it?  And if I am happy, that means I will be more active with the world, and more active means the weight lose will be just a side affect. 

So the goal of a dress, is not just a dress, its confidence, its love and its happiness that I deserve! 

 The way I feel at the moment, beautifully dangerous.

me, myself and i

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

Its long, pliable and can be fun solo or in a group setting.  You guess

One would figure with all the time I spend on the internet; surfing, gaming, shopping, downloading (yes the naughty stuff) I would have learned how to blog by now.  Alas, this is my first attempt to join the masses in the vast world of instant posting of one’s inner thoughts, nightmares, dreams, wishes and rants.  Hopefully, I will catch fast and some of you may be like what I have to say or at the very least start a discussion. 

About myself, I am a 30something female from Santa Cruz County, Cali.  In a land of surf, sand and beach bodies, I am a plus size gamer who would like to leave her mark in some way on the world.  Likes: WoW, fashion, gothic writing, Disneyland and cheese!  Dislikes:  the realization that common sense and common decency is neither common nor even praised anymore.